Conversations with Myself

We all have it - that constant stream of thoughts that flies through our heads every moment we are conscious. That little voice that tells us things, reacts to stuff around us, and can be our best friend and worst enemy all at the same time. Well, here is what mine has been saying...

Monday, May 08, 2006

A head full of bees

Yes, that is what I said. A head full of bees. That is what it's like. I have a head full of bees, constantly buzzing around from here to there, doing things. Some of the bees are dutifully working away at their given tasks and others are just flying around into stuff, making a nuisance of themselves and slowing the others down. At times there are more "bad" bees and at other times there are more "good" ones. But it's much easier to hear the bad ones most of the time. The squeaky wheel and all that.

It can be fun to have all that going on at one time - talk about being able to multitask! But today it's rather distracting.

The doctor just called and said that I may have chronic endometritis. The bees are all over that. Super-swarm. Some are worrying about it, some are researching it, some are ignoring it - though not very well - some are in denial and some are trying to get other work done but they can't because so many other others are getting in their way and using all the resourses up.

I have no symptoms of this chronic thing - it was from a routine biopsy that they discovered plasma cells that are linked to chronic endometritis. Researcher bee taking over: normally there are symptoms of this "disease" like irregular bleeding, pain, bloating, etc. I have no symptoms. I really think that the irritation that they discovered is because of all the "poking around" that the doctors have recently been doing - I had a laparoscopy for endometriosis 1 month ago and a dye test 2 weeks ago and then a hysteroscopy the very next day. Not to mention all the ultrasounds and clomid and IUI this month. No wonder I have irritation! I'm surprised I have a uterus at all at this point.

And all this just so I can have a baby. I am really lucky, though - this has all gone very well, with little side effects from meds and no complication from the procedures, until now. I HATED that biopsy and hysteroscopy...and the dye test for that matter. And now the doctor says that I will have to do the biopsy again after a round of antibiotics provided that the IUI doesn't produce a child or 4. (I had 4 eggs that were releasing - kinda nervous about multiples...)

So there is the daily bee report. Hopefully they have gotten all that out of their systems so I can get on to bigger and better things tomorrow.